The soundtrack of a soul.

    As most of you know, I love music. I think that it can express and feed pretty much any emotion. I have played in bands, sung in groups, helped out behind the scenes, pretty much anything to get the music out there. I have and still listened to pretty much all types of music, a very eclectic grouping that my pop gave me an ear for. Everything from Beethoven to Blood For Blood, and everything in between, in that, I have realized that it can feed certain emotions to an extent that there is some music and groups that I dodge now a days. Just cuz. Like it was quoted by one of the kiddos, 'it's not smart to poke the bear.'

     In that there are times when I have to monitor what the soundtrack of my soul is playing and then make a conscious effort to change the playlist. I have been going through a hellacious past three days, I had been planning a joyous arrival and reunion, and now, the ones who were on their way have completely gone off the radar. There is so much that is running through my head from both past and present. Past experiences and current thought patterns. It's a battle, there's an old native story about two wolves, and it talks of a grandfather telling his grandson, 'inside your body there are two wolves, one good, and one bad, and the one that dominates is the one you feed'. I try to remember that.
    For me, music is a venue that can stir all emotions, it is not only a song, but nature. The song of the wind in the air, the music of the mountains, and so on and so forth. In that it's tune can bring creation or destruction, it's just the way it is in my mind. So, with that, I will sing a song of creation, and healing so that I do not turn in upon myself. Yeah, that's what I'm gonna do.